Nirvana (Nirvana #1)
This book sent me on a rollercoaster. Not an emotional rollercoaster, but a what-is-this-why-am-I-still-reading rollercoaster. The first few pages/chapters were hard to get into because the writing was a bit jumpy and awkward, but that cleared up after a while. Once the writing cleared up, what began to bother me, and the reason I repeatedly questioned why I was still reading, was the protagonist Kenders. In the beginning, Kenders was the grieving “widow” who moved to action once she received a hint that her fiancé Andrew might still be alive. During this time, Kenders was strong and was putting herself in danger to solve clues in the hope they would lead her to Andrew. I, briefly, admired this Kenders. I was impressed by what Kenders was willing to do, albeit recklessly, to reunite with her love.
However, this Kenders did not last. The next Kenders began my descent into “End now! How did her personality change so quick?” Kenders’ personality changed from strong but reckless to dependent and unconfident when Serge entered the picture. All of a sudden, it was as if the old Kenders never existed. But I kept reading because I wanted to know if Kenders ever found Andrew.
And yet, this wasn’t the last Kenders that was introduced. The last Kenders was a reincarnation of Bella from Twilight. She never really loved Serge but she couldn’t live without him but she also couldn’t live without Andrew and when she lost Serge, she “realized” that she always loved him and would always love him but not the same way she loved Andrew. The end of the book was the most annoying part of the story.
However, while Kenders vast personality changes should’ve been my breaking point, what really pissed me off about Nirvana was finding out at the end that Kenders put herself in all that danger for nothing. Most of the people she had been keeping secrets from knew where Andrew was from the very beginning and were in physical contact with him so they could have gotten him the discs and information he needed without Hexagon knowing or hunting Kenders. All the trials she went through were for nothing. What a waste of reading time.
If you like stories of super corrupt corporations/groups taking over after the government has fallen and a random person (a girl) becoming the face and savior of a revolution she didn’t ask to be a part of, then Nirvana might be for you. Mostly I would avoid it, but maybe it’s good for you. I probably won’t read the rest of the series because the ending seems very predictable unless it goes the way of Allegiant.
*This review is of the published version of Nirvana and not the arc.